Life Lately – An Update Of Sorts On Love, Work And Life As I Know It.

A No Holds Barred Life Update.

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Some days, life is a series of “I can’t kill myself” statements dropped with a heavy sigh at random intervals. And on other days, it’s a quiet determination to stretch myself thin if that’s what it will take to get this adulting right and my life together.

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This year seems to be running on full steam- almost like someone rammed the nitro boost button after January. Only recently, it hit me smack in the face how the first quarter of the year is here and in fact, almost over.

Like clockwork, just as I do everytime I come to the realization that time is a luxury that I can’t afford – I took a deep breath and did a mini reflection on the days and months past.

By popular demand (via Instastory poll), Here’s a mini update of sorts and life lately as I know it…

Work Life.

A few months ago, my work life/future looked quite bright with new prospects and a sudden epiphany of what I’d rather do with my life instead. Armed with this new realization, I put it out into the universe that I was looking for a creative role.

A couple of interviews and “practical tests” later and I was putting pen to paper signing a document that listed me as an artistic director to a reputable fashion brand.

The excitement was real, till imposter syndrome set in and I found myself struggling mentally with if I was actually well suited for the position and all of that jazz that comes with imposter syndrome.

I lost it just as suddenly as I got it but I left with a few lessons and of course with a better understanding of my flaws (to improve on) as relates to work and productivity.
Right now it feels like I’m back to square one – the “now what” phase? I’m itching to work again, majorly because I need that extra creative stimulation/growth that comes with being around and working closely with other creatives (and an extra source of income is never a bad idea)

In the meantime though, I spend my days stuck in a cubicle that serves as my consulting room in a primary health care center in surulere. I finally got my NYSC placement and quite frankly I can’t complain as it couldn’t be better fitted to my needs.

Although it takes up the most part of my days, leaving me with no time to have another job that would require me to be physically present. It is a relatively slow-paced work (albeit very boring) environment and I don’t have to worry about night calls or working weekends.

Brand and Blog.

If you follow me on Instagram, you probably know that I’m launching a T-shirt line. I’ve talked about it on the blog here also as it has been a long-term goal for years now.

The plan was to launch two months ago but my obsession with details and having everything set in place got the better part of me and I ended up postponing/waiting for a time when everything was set.

Just as I made up my mind to put it out there regardless of my level of preparedness. My phone crashed, taking with it all the pictures/launch graphics I had put together and my motivation as well. Sounds like a crap load of excuses right? I’m keeping my fingers crossed that I can retrieve my pictures from my phone and launch next month regardless of whether or not I feel I’m ready. Please kindly show some support by following my shop page on Instagram – @shopcassiedaves

On the blog end, I’ve been battling with laziness. There’s also the knowledge that people don’t read blogs as much as they used to. One of my faves Sade recently called it quits for this reason.

Regardless I managed to score a couple of brand collaborations which looking back now have been some of the high earning collaborations I’ve had in a while. Thankful doesn’t cut how I feel.

Love and Relationship.

My motto lately as regards love and relationships is “Don’t force anything”. Getting off a four-year relationship which didn’t end in the way that we both envisioned (marriage) has made me a bit relaxed when it comes to matters of the heart.

I’m learning to take life easy, enjoy it at its best and just go with the flow. I’m really just out here trying to experience what I can while I can even if it lasts for only a short while.

On the friendship end, it’s been a roller coaster ride. From losing a close friend to “relocation” and another to “life and poor communication “.

Making new friends as an adult requires a whole syllabus on its own. Coupled with the fact that I’m more introverted than extroverted, I fear I might never actually get the closeness I want. I recently traveled to Ouidah in Benin Republic (and stayed in the most gorgeous lake house eyy!) with five other ladies and spending my evenings with them talking about random things and belting out lyrics in true karaoke style reminded me of why an army of close female friends can never be overrated.

Regardless, I’ve learned to enjoy my own company so while I wouldn’t mind having all of that, it’s not a do or die for me. I’m also constantly working on and forever chastising myself to do better as a friend and a person in general because I know that I’m not exactly the most perfect person out there.

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If  I had to sum it all up, I’d say that life lately for me is all about trusting the process and working on being a better version of myself in all aspects.

What does life lately look like for you? Please feel free to share your thoughts on anything I’ve talked about also.