2015 In Words.

Its becoming a bit of a tradition of mine to do a year in review post. A tradition I started in 2013, continued in 2014 and although I’ve been procrastinating writing this and having troubles finding the words to write down, its one I intend to keep so here goes.

As I lay in bed reminiscing about this year and trying to think of words for this post, I can’t help but be thankful to God for His grace in everything.
A lot of things happened this year and in between every frustrating moment and every joy filled moment, I still felt a bit secured knowing that He was there for me.

I had the most dreaded final professional exams and amidst lots of tears and major depressing moments, I graduated med school and officially became a doctor (I wrote about that here). Even though I’m still currently unemployed, that’s one thing I’ll always remember 2015 for that.

I also experienced being broke on another level this year. Haha but I know that soon I’ll look back at it all as just another learning experience.

I didn’t do a lot of modeling this year compared to previous years and I didn’t die. Lol. There was once a point where I just couldn’t imagine what will happen when I eventually had to stop modeling but I got tired of it all myself instead.
I had the first edition of the Cassie Daves catwalk classes, I’m not sure if I’ll like to continue with this and though this wasn’t in the plan at the beginning of the year, I was super proud of myself for doing it.

I also had my meet and greet event ‘TBC Connect’ and this was another high note for me. There’s truly nothing as delightful as seeing something you put together come to life.

I learnt to drive this year, went to a proper driving school but still haven’t driven a car after that. Hopefully, I don’t forget how to.

I cut my hair again, remember the very first time I cut it in 2013? Read the story here.

I started learning this makeup thing from my makeup artist friend, but I didn’t complete it so I’m still #TeamBrowsNeverOnFleek

I also learnt a whole lot about my potentials/passions and also a lot of things that I can do. See, associating myself with doers, thinkers and all round creative people was one of the best things I did for myself this year.

This year I impressed myself a lot! With the level of maturity I approached and tackled some life issues. Of course, I still had moments when I let myself choose the irrational way out but I can definitely see the difference between where I am now and last year.
I grew a whole LOT! and learnt a lot of things – through both bad times and good times.
I learnt a few lessons in friendship.
I re-learnt the beauty of just letting go.
I learnt to communicate my feelings on things a bit more instead and not let anyone make me feel bad for choosing to share how I felt over hoarding it inside.
I learnt that nobody really owes me anything.
I also learnt that people can be evil sha but then thank God for the beauty of letting go so I freed my mind.
I learnt to do more of the things that brings me to life and to say no to fear.
I learnt a lot about love, about how its more of a decision than butterflies and giddy feelings.
But most importantly, this year I learnt to stop limiting myself so much especially in my thoughts, to dream big and also to constantly guard my heart against envy, jealousy and all round negative thoughts.

BECOMING – that’s the theme of my 2015.

I’m still a work in progress but I’m only getting better.

I didn’t do a “the real mvps” post like last year but I have to say a big thank you to Kachy for just being a positive influence, Ismail for never hesitating to help me out, Laiza for always encouraging me to be better, Anthony for being supportive at all times and you guys of course for all the love.