Should i consider it coincidence that just yesterday i was lying in bed contemplating the complexities of life, my head filled with the numerous thoughts, anxieties and frustrations of trying to decide what will become of me when i graduate, which path I’ll finally take do , if i really want to be a doctor and just this evening someone on my bbm updated the above question, “Are you happy with an average life”?
It immediately hit me! I mean that’s my biggest fear in the world. Not living a full life, having to look back with regrets and thoughts of a wasted youth
I had a conversation with a classmate sometime back which made me realize I’m not the only med student with such thoughts and how I shouldn’t feel ashamed of asking myself that.
She was talking about how she is also unaware of what the future holds for her and how she feels like her whole life revolves around “med-school”.
She mentioned that at least I have my modeling and fashion which sounds really exciting and fun.
Yes! I do have modeling but that’s just the tip of the iceberg for me. I want to someday walk down a runway in new york, paris, london! Even if its just a part time thing.
I want to live!
To be free to discover myself.
I want to travel the world.
I want to move to another country and start all over again.
Meet new people, learn new languages and culture.
Try out new things
I want to take part in an international modeling contest. Even if its just for the experience but then Who knows right?
There’s Never time, some exam to write or classes/attendance to meet up
I want a little tattoo on my rib cage and maybe a few more if I really like it.
I want to go on a road trip to anywhere.
I really envy my friends who can just get up one day and decide nigeria isn’t benefiting them anymore and move over to another country.
No inhibitions. *sigh*
I just don’t want to be stuck with a monotonous life doing something that doesn’t really excite me.
No! I’m not satisfied with an average life. Are you?
“I may not have all the answers now and I may be unsure of how I’m going to break free when the time eventually comes but I’m praying and hoping that God directs my path”
Cassandra Ikegbune
Xoxo
Your thoughts are normal. I don't think anyone, or even you, can have the whole answer. It's just best to pray to God, ask for His leading. He never forsakes us and He's plans for our lives, are always good! 🙂
Stay strong and prayed up! 🙂
On point mehn,it's nt a coincidence oo…cos hv also bin tinkin d same tin 4 ages…tho except d modelling in paris sha.lol.rily most of us r jz existing insted of actually living.nd it shudnt b so.all it takes is a lil courage.wc is wat am praying 4 rt nw.lool.tis well jare dw 🙂
Never ever allow or give room to the fear of not living a full life,once you allow that it will control you.Live everyday like its your last,take risk try new things,above all be positive.And hey girl! try going for ANTM Africa's next top model.You never know.No one wants an average life,but you have to work hard real hard so you have the best of life.*hugs doll.
I love this,that's my fear too…all you can do is pray
Thank you guys. you all are the best. Xxxx
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